{"id":1241,"date":"2020-12-30T08:37:50","date_gmt":"2020-12-30T13:37:50","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/gailcarsonlevine.com\/blog\/?p=1241"},"modified":"2020-12-30T08:37:50","modified_gmt":"2020-12-30T13:37:50","slug":"idea-worry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/gailcarsonlevine.com\/blog\/2020\/12\/30\/idea-worry\/","title":{"rendered":"Idea Worry"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Happy New Year!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I happened across this interesting website that you might enjoy noodling around in. The page I\u2019m linking to reveals the difficulty level of any word: <a href=\"https:\/\/datayze.com\/word-analyzer?word=unstop\">https:\/\/datayze.com\/word-analyzer?word=unstop<\/a>. Some of the results are curious. For example, <em>dogged<\/em> is considered elementary\/middle school level, but <em>doggedness<\/em> is graduate level. Another page may come in handy for naming characters (and children). It\u2019s the Baby Name Uniqueness Analyzer. There\u2019s also a Nickname Finder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>On February 9, 2020, Kit Kat Kitty wrote, <em>I\u2019m having trouble with ideas. Not just coming up with them, but liking them. It seems that lately, whenever I get an idea, I excitedly write down the possibilities, but then I just drop it. I focus so much on how wrong everything could go. The setting isn\u2019t original enough, the magic system wouldn\u2019t make any sense, or I\u2019m just ripping off the last book I read.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>I feel like every time I really start thinking about something and what I could do, I don\u2019t want to write it anymore. I\u2019m just so convinced that it\u2019s not worth it, or it won\u2019t work, or it\u2019d be too hard to write and I\u2019d just get lost.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Any advice? And does this happen to anyone else?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I wrote, <em>I think it happens to almost everyone. I\u2019ve added your question to my list.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Erica wrote, <em>My only advice is to try to write the story before you analyze the story. Aso, maybe it would help to deliberately try to write a really bad story so you can get the criticism out of your system?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And Melissa Mead wrote,<em> Oh yes. All the time\/ Sometimes it helps to write something that I don\u2019t intend to show anyone. I tell myself \u201cOkay, time to get this junk out of my system so it doesn\u2019t get in the way of anything else.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Sometimes it is junk. Sometimes it comes out better than I would\u2019ve thought.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>My rule is not to be judgmental about anything I\u2019m writing. Ever. Not even after my story or novel or poem is all written and revised. I\u2019m not allowed to think it\u2019s unoriginal or boring or farfetched or any other withering criticism. Of course I let myself notice if, say, the pace is slow or a character isn\u2019t likable when I want her to be. Those criticisms are narrow and useful. Then I jump in and work on whatever the problem is.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This taboo includes liking or disliking my ideas or my story, which is just another form of judgment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The reason for the ban I put on myself, as Kit Kat Kitty is discovering, is that harsh judgment makes writing much harder, maybe impossible. Why would people subject themselves to such misery? Instead, we can master archery or cook a stew or weed around the tomato plants\u2013which are impossible to do in a clich\u00e9d way, and the reward comes more quickly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But I want to keep writing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>The ban takes practice. We have to become self aware and notice what we\u2019re doing to ourselves. Gradually, we recognize that we\u2019re self-inflicting before the effects set in. We can put a quarter in a very large jar whenever we catch ourselves. We can keep a log: May 3rd, 11:05 am, called myself stupid; May 3rd, 3:47 pm, called my characters flat. Etc. We can congratulate ourselves when we go three days without having to write in the log.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Because the minute we notice, we have to cut it out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I\u2019m copying a sentence of Kit Kat Kitty\u2019s worrying here: <em>The setting isn\u2019t original enough, the magic system wouldn\u2019t make any sense, or I\u2019m just ripping off the last book I read.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We can put a quarter in the jar for the word <em>unoriginal<\/em> and then we can get down to considering our setting without judgment. What could be in the backyard in addition to the swing set? We make a list, naturally: a giant face made of wood that can be stepped into through the mouth or slithered into along the ear canals; a small, two-horse carousel; a half-repaired sailboat. You can continue the list. How can we develop our setting in a way that will support our plot? For example, in revising my Trojan War fantasy I\u2019m thinking about how to make the city precious so that the reader will care about its survival, not just the survival of my characters.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We can take the same approach with the magic system. We pay the jar for <em>wouldn\u2019t make any sense<\/em> and put the worry in terms we can work with, like consistency or effectiveness. What about the magic system is inconsistent or ineffective? How can it enhance our plot?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Same approach even for the rip-off criticism, maybe even more so. We <em>want<\/em> to be inspired by the creations of other writers, including books, movies, series, and, though I don\u2019t know much (anything) about them, video games. We want them to plant seeds in our brains. Poets do this quite openly. We write responses to other poems or have a conversation with another poem. We incorporate a line from someone else\u2019s poem in ours (and give credit). <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>For fiction, we can ask ourselves what in the other writer\u2019s story set off the imitation impulse? It may be something we want to explore ourselves. Or it may be something we disagree with and we want to make our case. Or there may be a flaw that we want to remedy. I wouldn\u2019t worry about imitation. Whatever we come up with will inevitably be our own.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>(I thought <em>Ella Enchanted<\/em> was entirely derivative when I wrote it, because I poured into it elements of everything I loved as a reader. I was sure I was going to be caught, but so far I\u2019ve gotten away with the theft.)<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I think something else may underlie the self-attack when we indulge in it, and that, in my opinion, is how daunting writing is. Many arts are interpretive. Actors (who aren\u2019t doing improv) interpret the lines provided by a writer. Musicians (who aren\u2019t jamming) interpret a composition created by someone else. That&#8217;s easier! (Or so I think, who is neither a musician nor an actor.) Writers have to do it all: characters, plot, setting, POV, voice. The prospect is scary, so we may put off the work by hobbling ourselves. Better, in my opinion, to look unblinkingly at what\u2019s involved, understanding that we\u2019re imperfect writers and a struggle lies ahead.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>There\u2019s this too: we can ask ourselves if something has happened, connected or not to our writing, that has brought on the self-attack. It may be that someone has criticized our hair or our way of arranging the food on our plate or our voice quality. Or we ourselves may have done something, unconnected to writing, that we don\u2019t approve of. If we discover the source of our unhappiness, it may detach from any association with writing, and we may be free.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>As for ideas, they\u2019re minor in the process, just raw glimmers that have to be shaped. We can\u2019t know how useful they\u2019ll be until we start delving into them and asking many what-if questions\u2013without judgment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Meanwhile, we can generate ideas about what we\u2019d like to buy with the quarters that are piling up.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Here are three prompts:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2022 Let\u2019s take that backyard setting. Make a long list of what might be in it, at least twenty-five items, some of them direct steals, like I\u2019m thinking of the rocking chair from the old movie Psycho, which would have to be rotting by now. Vary the tone of the items: make some of them normal and cheerful and some creepy or sad because they bring up tragic memories. When you have your list, think about the plot that might come out of using some of them. Ask yourself who lives in the house, who lives next door. Who\u2019s the mayor of the town. Relax. Don\u2019t settle for one particular idea. Write down whatever shows up. No judgment. Let them germinate. No judgment. Imagine a conversation in the backyard. Write it down. No judgment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2022 The evil queen in \u201cSnow White\u201d may suffer from harsh judgment herself. When the mirror tells her that Snow White has replaced her as most beautiful, she can\u2019t handle the criticism. All that comes to mind is killing the girl. If she thinks about the other young women who are likely to come along as she ages whom she\u2019ll also have to kill, she probably accepts her serial murderer future. It doesn\u2019t have to go that way! Help her out and write a story in which she evolves. Extra credit if you also manage to give Snow White a personality.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u2022 This is from Wikipedia\u2019s description of the beginning of the plot of the medieval epic poem Beowulf:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Beowulf begins with the story of Hrothgar, who constructed the great hall Heorot for himself and his warriors. In it, he, his wife Wealhtheow, and his warriors spend their time singing and celebrating. Grendel, a troll-like monster, is pained by the sounds of joy. He attacks the hall and kills and devours many of Hrothgar&#8217;s warriors while they sleep. Hrothgar and his people, helpless against Grendel, abandon Heorot.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Beowulf, a young warrior from Geatland, hears of Hrothgar&#8217;s troubles and  leaves his homeland to assist Hrothgar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Beowulf and his men spend the night in Heorot. Beowulf refuses to use any weapon because he holds himself to be the Grendel&#8217;s equal. When Grendel enters the hall, Beowulf, who has been feigning sleep, leaps up to clench Grendel&#8217;s hand.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Imagine that Beowulf doesn\u2019t attack Grendle immediately. Instead, the two contemplate each other silently for ten whole minutes, each one having ideas about what\u2019s going to happen. Write the internal monologue of each one. Imagine, say, that one is a battle tactician and the other a deep thinker about philosophy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Have fun, and save what you write!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Happy New Year! I happened across this interesting website that you might enjoy noodling around in. The page I\u2019m linking to reveals the difficulty level of any word: https:\/\/datayze.com\/word-analyzer?word=unstop. Some of the results are curious. For example, dogged is considered elementary\/middle school level, but doggedness is graduate level. 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